In the name of fear.

I've been so scared the past few days. Scared of starting my new job as a teacher. I'll be influencing so many lives, what if I do something wrong?

I've been scared to step into the real world, a world that needs so much change. What if I'm not doing enough to change it?

I'm single after years now and I fear that I won't ever find someone who is caring, loving and a nice human all at the same time. I've seen too many men who want nothing but sex to actually think that someone could want something else from me.

I trust people too easily but I've been taken for granted so many times, I'm always scared that someone will take me for granted again.

I'm scared I'm taking wrong decisions all the time lately and that too confidently. But it's okay cause at least I'm still doing whatever I wish to. 

I'm not letting my fears stop me but my biggest fear is that this won't last long.

Soon, I might just not be able to function with fear driving all my actions and thoughts. It's good to have it sometimes, it keeps stupidity at bay but I'm drowning in fear right now.